I read a blog, a very meaningfull blog. Why am i lying to myself? Why am i lying to everyone out there? I cant even forget her, why? Everything time scold her on my blog, saying things bout her, putting o a fake fucking smile showing her tat my fucking life is great w/o but its all a fucking lie. Not getting a single text from you, night text morning text everything. Im so bored. Every single text tat i get, i always hope that its from you. But i know its wont every happen, you alr have a new guy leading you a new life. I bet, you dont even think about me, and im still foolish enf to always wonder if you're missing me. I bet, you're smiling everyday with him. Loving you dont mean i gotta have you, im still stupid and i will still welcome you back. Yes ppl say you hongster etc, but is love really about reputations? Thinking tat everyone hates you, dont like you but must i really care wat they think? After th good bye, everything changed, always waiting you to end work and text me, its so different now. Always having to ask you sleep, ask you t eat, ask you t bathe, wif every same reason you dw its cuz you wanna pei me. Its last at night 12, 1 plus and th next day you got work, yet you dont wan to sleep because you wanna pei me.
Now, just by lying on bed, blasting music, flash backs i get bout us, my mind would be fill wif you, knwing that i deleted everything about us just cuz i wanna forget bout you but yet, i would end up trying to get everything tat i can back. I dont wanna lie, lie to th world, putting on a fucking fake smile showing every one that i have totally forget bout you? But, just seeing th number 11th for just once my mood would alr go down. Toking to friends i would say your name out all of th sudden stonning everyone. Wondering everyday tat th guy you're wif is treating you well.
Just wish you all th best in life, i dont mind sitting ina dark corner waiting all day and night.
I just hope you know im still loving you each day. I miss you.....