Life seems different now, without you. You dont even wan to meet me now. What am i to do? Now, all you wanna do is throw all of that away. Do you know, ever since we were starting to fall apart, I started to eat lesser each day? 3 meals became 2meals, 2 meals became 1 meal, 1 meal became a few mouth thats it. Drinking, doing stupid things, i dont even care bout my body now, how weak its getting. Gastric every day. I still didnt day anything. Worrying for u when u said u going on a diet. And yet u had gastric too. Did you knw, how worry i was? 6months soon to 7. Yet i still cant change for you. Just what must i do to make u happy? You kept saying i was only thinking about myself, but i really was not. You have no idea how much i tot of you first. I alr dont have much time left. And all this is happening. You had no idea at all wad i had to fear everyday. You had no idea at all, how angry i was when u asked u tat. You really had no idea. You knw how fast my heart pump?? Do You? You said every has fears, i knw tat. But wif fear, i had trust. I believed. You wont become th old you. I doubt u'll even read this, yet im still typing it all out. When i really used my time to make that snowman for u, i really meant it, i really wanted to change, and when i did, all this happened. Each time i pushed you away, wad i raelly wanted was for u to just pull me in and tell me u dont wan t leave me alone. But tat had nvr once happened. Look at us now, how far u're pushing me,i move back, and move forward towards you again. But have u ever done tat? Turyang, you remember? I asked u to listen to tat song was because i was serious wif all my words. But right now, all i wish is that, u would just meet me. Thats all. I dont wanna think anything more, even if its just for a second. I dont mind. I wont forget everything tat u had done for me. Nor would i forget u. Im sorry, 25th. You were my best christmas gift ever. I just wan to let you knw, i'll still wait for u, even after NS is over i i still cant get u back i'll still wait. I really do love you, ♥♥SharonLowMeiHao♥♥


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